Amazing support

This last year has been a truly amazing experience. Moving to a different role in the sport of cycling, I have come to love and appreciate sport in a whole new way as a coach. I have had so much learning in such a short period and have been incredibly lucky to have amazing mentors and supporters to help me carve my niche.

One of the great supporters of cycling in the city of Ottawa - John Large and his Echelon Project (release below) - have been fantastic and as part of their support for me, we will be selling the above jerseys. If you are interested, please check out the sizing and send me an email at jetrew@gmail.com by April 12 so we can get the order in soon! The cost of the jersey is $100 plus $10 shipping if you are outside of the Ottawa area.

Happy Cycling!

For those that may not know, the Echelon Project is a project committed to contributing to the competitive cycling scene in Ottawa and beyond. Our club The West of Quebec Wheelers, is not in a position to support a development team for an entire season.

Instead, through the Echelon Project, we support specific events or individuals that help provide opportunities for developing riders to venture into the world of competition cycling.

Each year is a new year. We do what we can, with what we have but more importantly we do it.

Past projects include; the Biker Banquet, U23 team to races in Canada and the US, 2-time participation in the Tour of Martinique, youth rides to Montreal, introductions to velodromes in Bromont and London, provide support to riders going to Nationals and Worlds, use old and new connections to set up riders in Nederlands and Belgium.

In 2013, one of our goals is to help support and encourage coach Jenny Trew. Jenny is a former elite track and road racer, who because of serious injuries sustained in competition, has had to step away from pursuing her dreams as a bike racer. Luckily for the sport of cycling, she has turned her focus to coaching and is now building her skills and credentials as a development coach. Too often retired athletes leave the sport and with them goes their energy and expertise. Canadian cycling and in particular the young riders in the Ottawa area are lucky to have Jenny pouring her passion into the sport.

In support of her initiatives with an area women’s team, and as an apprenticing National level coach, the Echelon Project has partnered with Jenny in promoting a special 2013 edition Jenny Jersey designed by Jenny.

All proceeds from the sale of these 50 special edition jerseys will go directly to Jenny and her coaching efforts this year.

Now is the time to show your support and pre-order a jersey. Jerseys are $100 (add $10 for shipping if required). Please send your order requests to jetrew@gmail.com by April 12.

Thanks for your support.

Full Cycle

The ladies getting ready for the Junior Pan Am road race No pun intended...I seem to be doing that a lot recently! Needless to say, my blogging form has not been great recently. I could come up with all the excuses in the world, but I think it's mostly because life has been a little different as of late. :P After a great winter of recovery that involved seeing a concussion specialist (who was awesome I might add) and measuring out the doses of athletic activity, I have slowly but surely seen my life come back to normal(ish). I've been working at the RE:FORM Body Clinic for about 6 months now - at first the owner of the clinic essentially did me a solid by employing me to do reception work. It was actually a pretty big challenge and I would come home after a 5 hour shift absolutely exhausted. At first I struggled to alphabetize things, now, 6 months later I'm able to help a little bit with performance management and forecasts - yay for managerial accounting! Meanwhile, the other side of my life, the cycling - was a little more up in the air. Come January 1, I was determined that I would be racing my bicycle again this year. While I opted out of riding the trainer (3 sessions over the winter for a total of 2 hours...), I was down in South Carolina in February with the National team for the same training camp that made my year in 2011. I really enjoyed the experience - it was amazing to get out and savour being on my bicycle and it truly was a fantastic group of girls! I was only home a few weeks before I was throwing all my stuff into a car and making the trip back down South, but this time with the Stevens p/b the Cyclery ladies. We had a fantastic training camp and I stayed on for another couple of weeks while Chris came down to join me. While I was down there, I got some pretty exciting news: I was headed to Guatemala as a coach for the Junior Pan American Championships. This was the first time that I had been in such an official capacity and I was excited, but lacked a little bit of confidence. However, once we got there I was like a fish in water and I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. I was lucky enough to have 3 other extremely capable and helpful coaches with me and it was an incredible learning experience. After returning home (and experiencing a few concussion-related set-backs), I knew that I was ready to make a pretty massive change in my life. As my symptoms still hadn't cleared up 100%, I started to face the fact that it was probably not in my best interest to throw myself headfirst into trying to regain my form to return to top-flight international competition. Lucky for me, while retirement is a challenging course of action to contemplate, it appeared that I had a new door opening in the form of coaching opportunities. Since my injury last year, I had been working with the Ottawa Bicycle Club juniors and I was already managing the Stevens team so with the addition of a few personal clients and an opportunity here or there, like the trip to Guatemala - I started to really consider what it would take to become a coach. I was not ready to leave the sport of cycling, and this seemed to be a natural fit. I love to help people and to be able to make a difference in the sport I love is truly amazing. So going forward, I am now focusing on building up a career in coaching. I am surrounded and supported by amazing people - I really can't believe how lucky I am. This might not have been the most evident path for me to follow in sport, but now that I'm here - I feel at home. I truly am excited about the prospects of coaching - and in the meantime, I still get to enjoy many a ride on my bicycle! Speaking of which, I need to go jump on the trusty steed. The excitement for today is that I get to go do intervals - for the first time in a long time! WAHOOO!!!!

The Seasons They Are a Changing

The best unexpected gift: beautiful fall days. I once had a friend tell me that his favourite riding weather was when he could wear leg warmers, a long sleeved jersey and no gloves. At the time, I was living in Australia, loving the 35+ weather, and I quite frankly, thought he was nuts. I further attributed this strange attitude to the fact that he was from England and that IS summer weather, from my personal experience of summering at my Grandparent’s place on the North Sea. But as I’ve grown older and wiser, I’ve started to understand his wisdom. Honestly, nothing beats a crisp sunny ride in the Gatineau Park at the end of the season.

Now, if I’m to be honest, I’m not really sure that it’s fair for me to call this the END of the season, given that my season never really was. But as we learn with time, the world keeps revolving even if we’re standing still, and not racing the bike season doesn’t stop the leaves from falling or the feeling that the winter months are beckoning. However, the imminent end to snow-free roads does help me to appreciate the dwindling days out on the bike.

Yesterday I got such a gift of riding a loop in the park with my friend Sarah Coney while she was back visiting from Vancouver. We had a gorgeous day and it didn’t even matter that we were creeping along in the hills as we are both recovering from injury-prone seasons. I came home somewhat shattered (it was the first time I’d seen a hill in a number of months) but incredibly contented. All the pressure and uncertainty that can plague the higher levels of the game was washed away by the pure joy of riding my bicycle.

I am incredibly sad to see my team from 2011 fall away going into next season. The girls, with the help of superior management surpassed any expectations placed upon them this year on both the domestic and international cycling scenes. It was super exciting to watch and really motivated me to get back on my game so I could get out there and join them, which unfortunately will never happen. I would like to thank everyone involved for all their love, sweat and tears (yes, from time to time there are tears in sport, despite learning at an early age from Tom Hanks that “there’s no crying in baseball”.) A special shout out needs to go to the man who kept the team running smoothly all year long, despite having a million other things to do (I swear I have no idea when the man sleeps): thank you Malcolm. You made many of our dreams a reality. And a pretty darn glitzy reality at that! I would also like to wish all my teammates the best in their future endeavours. You are all incredible people who deserve every opportunity that comes your way. I really hope that I get to work with you again in the future.

So, as I sit here gazing out at the cold rain falling, I look forward to tomorrow’s promise of sun and above-freezing temperatures to roll around on my kick ass (more or less unridden) Specialized, but I think today’s a day to throw on the running shoes. I’m still not up to 100% health, but I’m getting closer and closer means that I can exercise on a daily basis again – which makes my heart glow. This less than ideal season has reinforced to me that you really do have to take each day as it comes. As a goal driven individual, this can be difficult from time to time, but it really doesn’t hurt to slow things down and think “hey, what I’m doing: here. Now. This is pretty great”. And to really enjoy those red and gold leaves – because before you know it the pretty little snowflakes will be falling from the sky!

The Jagged Battle of Recovery – Concussion Be Gone!

BIG PROPS TO CANADIAN KIKA PENDREL FOR HER MOUNTAIN BIKE CROSS COUNTRY WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP TITLE!!! YOU ARE A INSPIRATION TO US ALL GIRL!

September has arrived with a vengeance. Where did my summer go?

I have mixed feelings about having the fall just around the corner (although you wouldn’t believe it given the heat and humidity outside right now!) Part of me is excited because that means that I’ve put in more healing time and maybe my body will be ready to get back to business soon, but part of me is sad that summer is nearly over! But regardless how I feel, it’s here.

The recovery is coming along - not nearly as quickly as I would like, but that would be the story of my season. It’s important for me to keep reminding myself that despite what I want to believe, recovery is not a linear process. At the end of June I made a large step in recovery, now I’m just waiting for another.

There are some days where I feel great and almost “normal” (like when I went shopping in London!) and then there are days where my head hurts, my ears ring constantly, and I’m happy to sleep most of the day away. The good news is that those days are becoming fewer and are farther apart. The bad news is that I’m not at a point where I can realistically resume training as I had been planning.

Each day is a bit of a game. I’m playing jump rope with the line of what I can handle. Sometimes I win. Other times I don’t! Through this tedious process, I have deduced that it is primarily my visual processors (yup, super technical term) that tire the easiest and consequently give me the most grief. This means daily activities such as driving, where you are constantly making visual calculations of speed are tiring, while fun endeavours such as video games are out. Too much of anything and I find myself sleeping over 12 hours a night and headaches are still a far too familiar frustration.

Still I keep up the hope that the next big health step will come. I dream about riding my bike in the near future and savouring every minute of it: the wind on my skin, the spin of my legs and the plain freedom that it brings. In the meantime I try to remember to take care of myself. That as one friend put it, I’m not doing “nothing”; I am “recovering”. How do you keep your stress levels down when doing nothing is a stressor? Hopefully I will take away new general relaxation and recovery techniques with me into the years to come of my cycling career and life that lie ahead.

As for the impending arrival of fall? I really do love September – and not just because it’s the month that harbours my birthday! It’s traditionally the start of new and exciting life things, Starbucks rolls out the Pumpkin Spice latte and it brings a bite to the Ontario air that reminds me of home in Calgary. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it will also bring the start of training for my 2012 season – but I know my body will tell me when it’s ready!

Weddings

I'm back in Ottawa...well at least for a few days!

I just had the most wonderful trip to Calgary for Becca's wedding. She looked stunning!


As a picture is worth a thousand words - there you go. Unbelievable dress eh? I can't wait to see all her pictures :)

It was so much fun to be there and experience her special day. It was full of awe at how gorgeous she and Tim were, excitement for them to experience how special marriage is and reminiscing as it reminded me of my wedding. Just an incredible day all around. I love weddings. The family time is awesome and the celebration itself is just great.

Now I'm at home trying to recoup the sleep that I opted out of over the last week before jetting off to England with Susan. I'm excited for the trip as it will be great to spend some more time in England (this time for a more positive reason!)

My recovery is going well. I'm thinking that I should be good to start some activity in the next few weeks. My last headaches were at the end of June and my fatigue seems to be the one latent symptom - but as long as I pay attention and manage it well, I should be on my way to normalicy.

Also - as this week has been full of emotion and ups and downs, I would like to have a memory shout out to Grammy Skeet, who passed away early yesterday after a struggle with dimentia. She will be missed.

The Little Victories

So last week while the rest of the team was ripping it up in Europe at the Internationale Thüringen Rundfahrt der Frauen I managed to keep myself busy on this side of the Atlantic. My days consisted of being a Tour superfan in the morning and acting as a landscaping foreman for my husband and his friends in the afternoon as we put a patio into our backyard. But first, let me back up for a minute to explain why I’m at home here in Canada instead of battling it out in the small streets of Europe.

Quite simply put: This has not be the season that dreams are made of (unless your dreams are drastically different from my own). Let’s rewind about 4 months ago to the middle of March when 2011 held infinite possibilities for my cycling career. I was coming off a fantastic winter training base of the trainer and Nordic skiing (a new combo for my new home in Gatineau, Quebec). My fitness was great and I was looking forward to an extraordinary team camp in San Diego with a great group of people who I am lucky enough to call my team! Unfortunately it was not written in the stars (despite my love of Tinie Tempah) for me, as after only 1 hour of great team riding at camp, I took a header off my bicycle at 50km/h that resulted in a separated shoulder, copious amounts of roadrash and a fairly serious concussion. I didn’t understand the repercussions at the time, but today, I’m still recovering from that violent meeting with the ground and my season was over before it really started.

Over the last few months, I have found myself identifying greatly with Sidney Crosby (if you’re Canadian or a hockey fan) as well as more recently with Jani Brajkovi, Tom Boonen and Chris Horner (if you’re more of a Tour junkie, like yours truly). Luckily of late, I seem to have turned a corner. Little as it may be, I have stopped having headaches in the last month and I’m starting to live more like a “normal” person. I’m not back on my bike yet and I still have a number of contraindications – but I’m hoping to be there in the next month or so as to mount my cyclocross assault. Each day is a test of my ability to balance the activity I think I should be able to handle with the rest I know I need and the consequences are rather unpleasant if I misjudge what I am capable of accomplishing. I’m learning to be easier on myself and accept that I need more rest than I think I do- a valuable lesson for an elite athlete!

I’m lucky to have had an incredible group of people to support me through the last few months including my husband, cat, family and my team. It’s coming back bit by bit :) and in the meantime, the boys in France have kept my passion for the sport fuelled. I have been a complete SUPERfan of the Tour this year. From watching the scary footage of Chris Horner’s crash to the captivating sprints and fellow Specialized team HTC’s killer leadout for Mark Cavendish to the incredible down to the wire GC fight, this year’s Tour has been the most entertaining Tour I can remember!

But if I’m going to be honest, it’s the sprints that get my blood pumping – quite literally. I have so much respect for the whole HTC leadout team with special props to Mark Renshaw – and I just LOVE watching Cavendish sprint. My heartrate must get up to around 140bpm as they rush towards the line. It’s the best replacement I can think of to being able to do it myself. In the meantime, I’m making great plans for our team for 2012 where I’m dreaming of Juvederm-Specialized replicating the train to deposit Joanie or myself to the line – it’s going to be awesome!

However, for now, I’m concentrating on the small victories. The days when I wake up and I’m ready to tackle the world (or in my case housecleaning) are becoming more common and I look forward to getting back on my bike to train for victory in 2012. I’m not a big fan of the “everything happens for a reason” cliché, but more of the, as my friend Alena puts it “you will learn something from your tribulations” life lesson. I have yet to find an eloquent wording for these past months, but I’m sure in retrospect it will make me a stronger, more tenacious person and athlete. I will take the wisdom gleaned from this year forward – so watch out, 2012 is going to be my year!

You can also check out this post on iamspecialized.com - it's pretty cool company to keep!

Turning a corner

Hiya blog! Long time no see. Sorry about that. If I'm to be 100% honest, it's been hard to post over the last few months as my general attitude has not been as positive as I would have liked and I don't like to put my negativity out there. Reading about someone moping is not fun - so I omitted it.

That having been said, I have had some great experiences over the last little bit. About a month ago I ended up going to England at the last minute - not for the happiest of reasons - my Gran had a stroke, but it was great to go over and see the family and she's doing fab now. I had a fabulous time with my Mum, Gran and Grandad (as well as various other England-based family members) for 10 days. I always love going over to Ruston Parva - it feels like home. Plus it got me away from Ottawa where I contstantly think about getting on my bicycle! :P We went on walks in the countryside, admiring the beautiful poppies, roses and baby livestock. Gorgeous! My Mum also woke up the latent knitter in me by suggesting that we knit a jumper for my cousin Howard's upcoming baby's arrival.

Knitting has proven to be a great passtime for my concussed self. It allows me to be obsessive about something that doesn't require any physical activity or any tremendous amount of mental work. I'm loving it! Which is a bonus as I had a good deal of airline time going from Ruston Parva all the way to Vegas for Becca (my sister)'s stagette in Las Vegas! Yeah baby! It was incredible. Three nights, eight girls and NKOTBSB in Vegas. That's right - you heard me NKOTBSB. Musical obsessions from all three decades of my life. I heart them all.



It all came to an end far too soon, and unfortunately my concussion kept me in bed far too much to be able to do Vegas justice and I was unable to boy band hunt after the show. Sad face.

Luckily there was much television to keep me busy once I got home with the Women's World Cup AND the Tour. There were a number of days where I would wake up, go to the television (via the coffee maker) and watch the Tour from 8am until 11:30, have lunch and watch soccer from noon until four. In fact, I was lucky that I was concussed or else I would have felt incredibly guilty for dedicating so much of my life to the television - but as it was, it was a fantastic recovery! HA! At least that's what I'm sticking to.

Going forward, I have more travels in my future including some more time back in Calgary to get ready for Becca's wedding on August 6th (eeek!!! Exciting!) and then off again to England with Susan (my lovely mother-in-law) to help with some research for her new book and to check out London and visit Ruston Parva again :). All in all some great ways to keep my ming off the bike until the beginning of September when I'm hoping my birthday present will be to get back on the bike! WAHOO! Fingers crossed!!!

As for now, I need to get my hinie off the computer so I can do a little gardening before the impending thunder shower hits. I'm desperatly hoping that this storm Don't Turn Out the Lights - and if you didn't get that NKOTBSB reference - take a listen to their new song - it's fantastic!

I'm Awesome.

I think those two words cover it ;)

A little background for you as to why I'm awesome? Alrighty - here she goes...

So it started off with my coach, DK, sending me a link to Kristina Groves' blog. It's a letter that she wrote on her blog to Sidney Crosby regarding concussions - and in my opinion, it sums up my situation quite nicely. I really appreciated her take on everything - so much so that I teared up while reading it. I have found the last few months to be incredibly frustrating and there was some solace in reading that I am not alone.

So just prior to DK sending me this link, I too, suffered a bit of a setback in my recovery. I guess I just pushed too hard and my body said "ah ah ah - you are not ready". Now I feel like I did back at the beginning - to sum it up in one word: FRUSTRATING. I was experiencing all sorts of emotions and felt that more than anything I needed a change of scenery...so I booked a flight to Calgary to see my family (Becca, my sister, just bought a new house - so it was an excuse to go see it) and friends.

On my first day in Calgary, I went to the local Starbucks to meet up with a friend. No more than 10 minutes after we sat down, Kristina Groves walked into the same Starbucks! Now, this isn't as coincidental as you might think, given that my Mum lives a whopping 5km from the Olympic Oval where the National team speed skaters train - but I was surprised. In my head I had wanted to tell her how much her blog entry had touched me - and now, the very woman was standing in the same Starbucks. So I should go tell her, right?

Well in hindsight (with the help of the awkward conversation that ensued when I did talk to her), perhaps I could have approached the situation a little differently. But as it was such a disjointed conversation - it now (now that I am over the embarrassment) makes for a good story...

So yes, that is why I am awesome. Think before you act...or at least speak!

But the message stays the same - and for those of you who have read her blog - my brush with her is somewhat analogous to her brush with Sidney. Cute, right? Oh man, I sure hope so! It has helped me to see that other athletes are going through the difficulties and frustrating times that I am. My good friend MJ warned me when it first happened that I would "feel like I'm making things up, but you're not" and I have had to hold onto those words on a couple of occasions to help me keep my sanity!

So where do I go from here? What is next? The answer is a resounding "I DON'T KNOW". I have no idea on the timeline. I'm desperate to ride my bike and feel good, to push myself and feel fit, and of course to race. But I need to recruit all my patience because I'm dealing with my brain and I won't do myself any favours if I come back too soon.

Therefore, please excuse me if my entries are few and far between these days, as I don't have much to report on. But as soon as my body cooperates, I will be back out there soaking in the rays and making the legs burn. And hey, I've been in Ottawa long enough now that I should really give the cyclocross season a go!